I’ve always struggled with my weight.
I’ve written about it in this column. I’ve done a whole series
with fitness and nutrition experts in the past, but 14 months ago,
my weight started to creep up to 280 pounds at 5 feet 10 inches. I
was almost 30 percent body fat.
Early the previous summer, I was down to 245 but in a completely
unhealthy manner. I was living off cream of corn and fat free baked
beans.
Later in the summer, I started to put back on the weight. I was
eating horribly. A lot of fast food. In fact, I can remember the
week where I totally took a turn for the worse. My friend Kim and I
took a road trip from Denver to St. Louis following the horror rock
band Wednesday 13, the solo project of the former lead singer of
the Murderdolls. The band had shows in Denver, Kansas City and St.
Louis, and we were in tow with backstage passes to Pop’s, the St.
Louis venue.
For us, the entire trip was about six days, including two days
driving back from eastern Missouri. Fast food was on the menu for
every stop. The food was great, but to be loading that kind of fuel
into a body that would just sit in a car for the next several hours
simply wasn’t good.
And what was worse, I continued to eat that way when I got back.
I ate poorly through the anniversary of my mother’s passing, and I
ate poorly through the death of my best friend of 17 years, January
2009.
It was a couple months after that when I reached 280 and decided
I wasn’t going to get back up to 310 like I had five years earlier
— the heaviest I’ve ever been. So, I went to former Mr. Colorado
Kent Paul for some coaching.
Fourteen months later, I’m at 235. Let me explain the
significance of that number.
The last time I weighed 235 pounds was when I was playing inline
hockey twice a week with an additional practice. I didn’t nearly
have the muscle mass I have now, approximately 205 pounds. The
morning of July 12, I weighed myself getting out of bed, which I do
daily, and shed two pounds from the day before.
235 was on the scale. I had to weigh myself twice, because I
didn’t believe it. It’d been so long since I’d seen any scale give
me that number, about 10 years now. So, given my gained lean muscle
mass and now that I’m back at 235, I’m officially in the best
fitness of my adult life.
I threw my hands in the air and ran through my apartment — my
apologies to the hot girl who lives below me, screaming to world to
“suck it.” Tears starting to form in my eyes like I had won the
freakin’ Super Bowl.
I called my father and told him. He freaked as well, and he told
me to call him again when I hit 230. My goal is 220, and I was
hoping to make it for my Aug. 9 birthday. Not sure if there’s
enough time for me to do it the healthy way, but I’ll keep it going
regardless until I do.
It hasn’t been easy. If fact, it’s been utterly painful. I’ve
had to cut out a bunch of food I like. Pizza. Qdoba. Most recently,
chocolate animal crackers. Holy crap, those are good.
A lot of people ask me how I’ve been able to do it. There’s a
lot of details that a professional trainer and nutritionist can
answer for them, but there’s only one reason I can really credit to
my slow and steady success, outside of Paul’s coaching. What I put
in and do to my body is one of the only things I have total control
over.
After a breakup with a girlfriend last year, I started to drift
away from my fitness efforts. Paul told me something that has stuck
with me. He said that it’s amazing how we tend to allow all these
aspects of our lives, which we ultimately have no control over,
dictate our actions and emotions and give us reason to ruin the
things do have control over.
We can’t control who in our lives pass away, or a relationship
ending, etc. But what I do to keep myself healthy is something I
can control.
I’ve come to cling to that when life’s bad stuff starts creeping
in. The things I can control is what I cuddle up next to
frequently. And few people get in between us now.
See you at 220.